Official First Day of Contact Usage. I think I'm going to need a valium to put them in in the AM. Like yesterday the aide told me "it would be easier if your finger would just stop shaking."

My morning: I give myself a good half an hour to put them in. I take them out of the solution, try to make sure they're flipped the right way. Do the whole *hold your eye open and try to place it correctly* move and no matter what I did it kept not attaching to the eye and then it would always fall. When they'd fall I'd panic! seriously. I was like *you just got these things Susan and you've lost one already.* Yes, I have papertowels spread all over the area but somehow they'd always miss the towel and end up somewhere else. Like on the wall. So every time I'd drop one I had to clean it. Finally I manage to get the left contact in. Then I psych myself up to get the other one in. Somehow I managed to do it.

I hope it gets better because I can't see myself having panic attacks every morning doing this. I want it to work out!